Pages

H-E-L-L-P!

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

that's not a spelling mistake, that's real life.


- infertility sucks. don't believe me? just watch your best friend crumple to the kitchen floor in heartbreak. how much pain can one couple endure? how many tears can one person cry over a baby who weighed little more than a watermelon? not enough apparently.


- powerlessness is a powerful emotion.


- Saige's daycare has officially closed and has left me - for the first time ever - a full-time parent of TWO. women around the world dream of this - see above - but here I sit 100% terrified.


- finding new child care arrangements for when I return to work is harder and more emotional than I originally thought... no one can replace Dean, no one.


- I've got a serious case of the screamies {read Berenstain Bears if you're unfamiliar with the term}. this does not make me feel like a good wife, mother, person, _________.


- I took my little buddy for his second round of immunizations today. who doesn't love seeing the desperate look of "why are you letting them do this to me?" in their teary baby's eyes? kill.me.now.


- Gabe had blood in his diaper tonight. wtf? is all I'm going to say about that one. sure did just use the 'f' word.


- Gabriel has forgotten how to sleep and is obvious discomfort once again - for the love of... I was up with him FIVE times last night and I'm already at #3 tonight. oh and did you catch on facebook that his internal alarm clock has been reset for 4:30 am? I'm dying for 24 hours of uninterrupted sleep.


- I've never been more exhausted in my whole entire life. hmmm gee I wonder why? seriously though I haven't been able to recover since getting strep throat earlier last month. my energy level is so low that I actually took matters into my own hands and discussed my symptoms with both a public health nurse and walk-in doctor... I was given a postpartum depression questionnaire and a blood requisition form.


- I missed my first 'learn to run' clinic tonight courtesy of all the above... not the greatest start to my new year's resolution.


- our home addition plans hit a speed bump known as your-contractor-doesn't-have-the-appropriate-home-warranty-coverage-that-we-require-to-finance-your-dreams... more on that later.


- according to my handy sidebar poll, the overwhelming majority of you want to read more about my daily life / daily struggles... who woulda thunk it? so here it is in black & white, time stamped with 3:05 a.m.


- as much as I love amusement park rides {I really do, I'm not just saying that} I'm ready to get off this emotional roller coaster. 2012 was supposed to be MY year; I'm turning 29 in April {W5 did that happen?} and I so wanted my last 365 days as a twenty-something year old to be totally awesome... I continue to hold out hope but with waning optimism.


** I didn't intend for this post to read like a "pity party for one, your table is ready" but I think that's where it ended up... sorry 'bout that. Don't worry about us though, people survive much worse... I'll be a-okay, scout's honor.

15 comments:

MSDeyle said...

I confess that I voted for almost everything... I'm THAT person that can't make up my mind.

What is the Learn to Run class?

Brianne G said...

I am sending you virtual hugs!

Randalin. said...

It sounds like you have so much going on right now and to be sleep deprived on top of everything else - ugh, I feel for you. Don't worry about running class (or dishes or laundry or anything else that isn't necessary). Just go into survival mode - take care of the basics, let everything else fall apart for awhile and take care of YOU.

Sarah said...

All of that is so much to handle at once. REALLY. And two kids full time is scary (believe me, I know) and overwhelming at times. And strep is no joke and you have to rest, not run! And the post wasn't near a pity party. It was real life and that's why people love your blog!
Hope your days are getting better...how's Gabe feeling?

Sara K {SaigeWisdom} said...

well I missed the first session, but I think it's basically a group of people wanting to do just that - 'learn to run'. I signed up as I'm 99% less likely to quit if other people are watching.

Sara K {SaigeWisdom} said...

thanks Bri ;)

Sara K {SaigeWisdom} said...

I think I'm going to take your advice... maybe even photograph the evidence of me not doing anything {aka 10 laundry baskets in our already cramped living room}

Sara K {SaigeWisdom} said...

he's still fussy and not sleeping... we're wondering if it's because we bumped him up to the next level of formula? nothing else has changed in his little world aside from that.

Sarah said...

I never bump my kids up. I always keep the status quo...hate to mess with anything that is good:)

Kado pasutri said...
This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.
Dongdong Weng said...
This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.
irawan loris said...
This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.
Gege Dai said...
This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.
Gege Dai said...
This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.
farras shop said...
This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.
Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...
 

© 2013 Sara K. All Rights Reserved. | Blog Design By Brittany Douglas